Between 2011 and 2016, Christina Aguilera was a TV prop as coach in six seasons of The Voice . But despite the obvious camaraderie and its always elegant facade, the pop diva was miserable during most of her singing in the hit vocal competition.
"I longed for freedom," says Aguilera, 37, about the time in Billboard 's cover story in June. She remembers the moments when she would come home from taping and breathe easy. "I would just take off everything – the make-up, everything – and would hip-hop, or nirvana, & # 39; creep, & # 39; slayer, that brings me out of this zone, this TV mode." [RELATED:ChristinaAguileraspillsherloveforKanyeWest-'exceptitscontroversialaspects'
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Call it a "Buttern Hamster Wheel" and an "Energy Sucker" , Aguilera outlined her fundamental problems with the program she finally won with Alisan Porter in 2016.
"It became something I did not feel I had signed up for season one," she said. "You realize it's not about music, it's about making good TV moments and massaging a story, I did not come into this business to be a TV show presenter and get all of this [rules] ] Especially as a woman. "
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Aguilera explained that she felt constrained by the limitations of production. "You can not wear this, I can not say, I would find myself in this show, desperately trying to express myself through clothes or make-up or hair, it was my only kind of outlet."
Aguilera admits that she The Voice partly stayed because she did not want to disturb the lives of her little children: son Max Liron, 10, and daughter summer rain, 3. "It is easy to be in the same place well and Feeling comfortable and not having to worry about the uprooting of your children, I've pushed myself into the background. "
The show had a silver lining for the" Beautiful "singer: a chance to use fences with pop music. Icon Pink to mend. According to Aguilera, the couple fell out when it recorded the star-spanked 2001 remake of "Lady Marmalade," but they have recently repaired it. Pink's appearance on The Voice provided an opportunity for the warm feelings to flow.
"I was so excited – even she was like," Why is she so excited to see me? ", Aguilera recalled. "I was like," Another woman! There is another vagina in the room! I'm so excited! "