"The last time I interviewed for so long, I was on cocaine."
From the first minute of Demi Lovato's official documentary, released last October, it is clear that the singer has no problem being open about her addictions
The previous interview to which she refers was for another documentary ̵
Lovato had "Stay" on one wrist and "Strong" on the other. She seemed to keep the demons at bay.
She insisted that she be cleaned shortly after the movie.
However, a month ago, fans discovered that she had suffered a relapse when she revealed in a new song, "I'm not sober anymore." So her apparent overdose on Tuesday is a heartbreaking turn for the 25-year-old and everyone else. She had followed her on her bumpy journey from the Disney star to the troubled pop icon.
The pressure to be a teen star, a dysfunctional relationship with her father, and bullying all contributed to the problems that prevented her at various points in her career, unveiling these documentaries
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Her problems with food and suicidal thoughts began even before her big break in the TV show Barney & Friends at the age of 10, she said, while At the age of 12, children in their class signed a petition that encouraged them
The pressure was exacerbated when she gained fame in the Disney Channel hits Camp Rock and Sonny before she started a pop career.
"I felt the pressure rise as fame sneaked into my life," she said in the latest documentary. "I started to feel the pressure to look in a certain way, to sing music that people would like, rather than to sing music that I like.
" There was more pressure to succeed … I was a perfectionist and I really wanted to be the best of the best. It has not diminished. It has just emerged more and more. "[Copyright]
At the age of 17, she tried cocaine for the first time while working on the Disney Channel. "I felt out of control with the Coke the first time," she said.
"My dad was an addict and alcoholic and I think I always looked for what he found in drugs and alcohol because it filled him and he chose about the family."
The first public admission that Something was wrong in 2010, when she broke off the Camp Rock 2 tour with the Jonas Brothers and went to rehab for what was then described as "emotional and physical" topics she had been dealing with for some time employed.
The crucial point had come when she and her companion dancers destroyed their hotel one night after drinking and smoking grass.
Lovato also took Adderall, an addictive stimulant recipe – and she beat an escort dancer told her parents and her manager that she was using the drug
"I was living fast and I would die young," she said in 2016. "I did not think I'd make it to age 21.
Following treatment control, she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder.
When she came out, she continued to use drugs like cocaine and Xanax. "I did not edit my program," she said. "I was not ready to sober up."
"I stole it in airplanes, slipped it into the bathroom, sneaked it through the night – nobody knew … I was either drug or drug … it was not me easy to work with.
In the documentary she revealed that she would even pretend drug testing by handing out other people's urine and being taken to hospital once after attempting suicide.
It was not until she hit such low points that they came together to do so tried to get clean.
When she was a judge on the US X Factor in 2012 and 2013, viewers had no idea that she was living in a "sober home" – a place to live and help with recovery. She had roommates, no telephone and had to do housework.
This sobriety lasted six years, she said. In her documentary she revealed that despite her drug and alcohol dependency, she had never been able to "completely conquer" her bulimia.
She said, "Eating is still the biggest challenge in my life and it controls … I do not want to give it the power to say that it controls every one of my thoughts, but it's something I constantly look to
"Body image of what I'm going to eat next, what I'd wish for food, which I wish I had not eaten. It's just constant. I get jealous of people who do not have an eating disorder just because I feel my life would be so much easier. "[Copyright]
Fans believed that her life was going in the right direction – until June 2018, when she released the song Sober
she sang: " Momma, I'm sorry, I'm not sober anymore / And daddy , please forgive me the drinks that were spilled on the floor / To those who have never left me / We have already gone this way / I'm sorry, I'm not sober anymore . "
Two weeks Previously, she had canceled two shows on her UK tour.
The documentary 2017 ended with a predictably optimistic note, whose transformation was described as "a miracle" at that time.
The documentary was titled Simply Complicated, and fans who have stayed with her now know their story is seldom easy.
But they'll hope she can come back to a point where she can live with her demons, even if they tame her