SPOKANE, Wash. (AP) – Former Super Bowl MVP Mark Rypien said he had attempted suicide, hired prostitutes, and suffered from persistent depression. Now he wonders if he suffered brain injuries while playing soccer.
The 55-year-old former quarterback is worried about his future, although he reveals some mysterious elements of his past.
"There were behaviors that were equitably bizarre," Rypien said in an article published on Friday in The Spokesman Review and aired on Spokane's KHQ-TV.
His wife Danielle said she also worried about Rypien's future.
"I remember thinking," Oh my god, he's going to end up in a house, "Danielle said," I did not want him running a cart around the street. "
Rypien was a record-breaking high school Quarterback in Spokane and then a star in nearby Washington State He was drafted by the Washington Redskins in 1986 and played until 2002.
Since then, he has spoken outwardly to lead a pleasant life in Spokane.
But he said that was not the case.
"My story is because people see me in a different light. I want them to see me in an accurate light, "said Rypien." I was on the darkest path. I have made some terrible, terrible mistakes. But I gave myself a chance to move forward. "
Rypien, who led the Redskins to victory in the Super Bowl in 1992 Buffalo and was selected as the MVP, said he organized football for 26 years and figures he suffered several shakes.
"People think you have to be knocked out for a concussion," Rypien said, "there are hundreds of times to shake off and go back inside. It's about the cumulative hits. That's what causes brain damage. "
Rypien said he suffers from depression, anxiety, and isolation." Outwardly social: "I can not wait to get home and be alone," he said.
A decade ago, his impulsive behavior began to escalate, aggression and verbal outbreaks increased.
One day, Rypien left a 20-minute audio suicide message at home to find Danielle, but he did nothing.
At some point later Rypien swallowed 150 Advils and washed them down with a bottle of wine.
"It was the idea that people will not miss me," Rypien said. "I was shameful and guilty of bad decisions, shameful and guilty of being depressed all the time. I did not want to be here anymore. "
Danielle found him and poured hydrogen peroxide and activated carbon into his throat to fetch him
Rypien said he also patronized massage parlors in Spokane, who were locked in a police stop in 2012 Name did not appear among the hundreds of other men listed as customers for one reason: He did not use a credit card to pay for the services.
"Yes, I was a part of it," Rypien admitted and gave none details. "Again, I made some absolutely crazy mistakes. Terrible decisions. Bad Judgment. "
Rypien has deteriorated in football.
" I would not put any of my children or grandchildren in a soccer jersey, "he said.
The Rypiens now believe they know what causes Mark's uncontrolled behavior has found and found tools, if not solutions, survived the kind of storm that often tore families apart, but Rypien is worried about the future.
"I could get worse," Rypien said, "I have strategies to bring me through the next day, the next year, 10 years. But I do not know. "