Melissa Etheridge says she was preparing for the possibility of her son Beckett’s death in the fight against drug addiction.
Twelve weeks after the death of her 21-year-old son, the singer said that while Beckett was struggling with opioid addiction, she wanted to help him and make him “do everything better” but she couldn’t.
“Of course there were things that were beyond my control,” the 59-year-old told Rolling Stone. “And at some point I really had to sit down and say, ‘I can’t save him. I can’t give up my life and try to live his life for him. ‘And I had to face the possibility that he could die. But I had to be able to live on. “
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On May 13, Etheridge confirmed that Beckett had died.
“Today I joined the hundreds of thousands of families who lost loved ones to opioid addiction,” she announced on social media. “My son Beckett, who was only 21 years old, struggled to overcome his addiction and finally succumbed to it today.”
The Grammy winner, who is also the mother of 23-year-old daughter Bailey and 13-year-old twins Johnnie Rose and Miller Steven, told Rolling Stone that she felt guilty but didn’t think her son wanted her to be trying hard way.
“There will always be this place in my heart and soul that is a little ‘oh, what could I have done? And is it my fault that he ended up like this? ‘and things like that,’ she said. “And it’s getting smaller and smaller because it no longer serves me, and where he is now, he certainly doesn’t want me to do it.”
One thing that brings them through the tragedy is music.
“What makes life meaningful has always been my music,” she said. “It gives us something to do every day to get through this time and it really only saved us.”