"We are a Jewish nation that will be great, we will not be knocked down by anyone or anything, terrorism like this will not tear us down," recalled the rabbi and said one day after the shooting in the Congregation the reporters Chabad.
After recovering from one of his rifles with an index finger following a hospital operation, he again had a message to report.
57-year-old Goldstein tried to comfort the grief and wounded as he tried to understand what had happened in the synagogue that had begun more than 30 years ago.
"We will not be intimidated or deterred" The terror will not win, "said CNN hospital's Brian Stelter from the hospital on Sunday," and as an American, we can not face this so-called anti-Semitism in the face of this senseless hatred Sit back. "
" A little light pushes away a lot of darkness. We need a lot of light now, "he said." I think next Saturday I would like to appeal to all Jewish people to visit the synagogue. We have to fill these rooms, not run away from the synagogue, but on the contrary, the synagogues
"Let's show these terrorists, let's show these wicked, evil people that they will do nothing to stop us To be proud Jews and to be proud people in the freedom of America, "he said.
After Goldstein was released from the hospital, he thought again of giving advice to his church and all the others who were listening.
"The Most Exciting Sight I've Ever Seen"
Both hands were strongly connected. One arm was in a sling.
"We love you, rabbis," some of them said, "We're sorry that happened to us Synagogue."
When Goldstein was 24, his teacher from Brooklyn sent him to a synagogue in Poway, California, 22 miles north of San Diego. It was empty land, the promise of a welcoming and sacred place.
Today, a community center houses the synagogue, a pre-school and an organization for children with special needs.
"My wife and I, our whole lives, is about what we can do for the community, and it's unthinkable for us to do so in 2019," he told CNN earlier that day.
Speak with The reporters gathered in front of the synagogue. Goldstein remembered how a blast of shots interrupted the peace of the last Passover day, one of the holiest days of the year.
He and the Congregation are preparing for a memorial service, he said.
The rabbi said he heard a loud bang as he walked toward the banquet hall to wash his hands.
At first he thought that Lori Kaye, a longtime member who helped the community get the loan for the building, had fallen into the lobby. Maybe a table had fallen over, he thought.
But then the rabbi turned around and saw a terrible sight, he said with emotion in his voice.
"Here's a young man with a gun pointing directly at I. And I look at him, he had sunglasses on, I could not see his eyes, I could not see his soul," Goldstein said.
The rabbi said that he froze. He wondered where the noise came from. What happened to Lori?
More shots were heard, Goldstein said, and he put his hands up in front of him and shielded himself with his fingers.
He stormed into the banquet hall for the children playing there, including his four-year-old granddaughter. Bleeding, he shouted, "Out, out!"
Then the shooter stopped shooting. The police say it's still unclear why, but it's possible that the gun is not working. The rabbi said he thought it was stuck.
An armed Border Patrol agent who had recently worshiped in the synagogue after discovering his Jewish roots pursued the shooter, the rabbi said.
"After the shooter leaves and the terrorist left, I turn around to assess the situation and I walk into the lobby and see Lori lying unconscious on the floor," he said in mourning.
Kaye's husband tried to give CPR and fainted next to her. The couple's daughter screamed for her parents.
"This is the most heartbreaking sight I've ever seen," Goldstein said.
The rabbi said he felt like he was frozen in time.
"I grabbed a prayer cloth, wrapped my arm and my fingers with it, it just hung down and dangled, bleeding everywhere, my congregation was gathered out here, and I said," I have to do something. "
So He rose to the chair and began to speak.
Fight of darkness with light
Goldstein said He prayed and cried in the hours after the shootings.
"I pray for healing at this time, for the pain and grief, and I ask the world to do something to add more light to combat the evil darkness, "he said.
The Rabbi Accused It seemed hard to fall, a reason to find out why his life was spared.
He was "inches from a point," he said.
"I h But this horror is experienced for a reason, "he said. "God did not want me to die yesterday, God wants me to continue being His emissary and partner."
Goldstein said he had followed the words of the rabbi and teacher he had learned from while growing up in Brooklyn.
He quoted his teacher and encouraged people to perform arbitrary acts of kindness "to tip the scales".
"There is so much darkness in the world now, but you and I have the capacity to change," he said.
"I'll never forget yesterday, my missing finger will physically scare me forever, but it will remind me how vulnerable we are and how heroic each of us can be."
Sara Sidner, Dakin, CNN Andone, Madeline Holcombe and Hollie Silverman contributed to this report.